Direct knowledge

I studied until the age of 36. I had created works, whose value I was aware of and that could not be ignored. My self-confidence was of a Master. The typical courage of the ignorant.

One day I realized that if I know anything, it is because someone had told it to me. Second Hand.

The collapse was terrible. Even now from time to time we look at each other with my Ego under eyebrows. It is a great engine in crisis management, but the problem is it always reaches for the steering wheel, or else pulls the hand brake or at least shifts the gears.

I was considering everything for a year and was pondering the things I had learnt by myself. I got a total of 9 /nine/ sentences. I felt relieved. I used the occasion of my adventure with VIS and went to the Rozhen Monastery. I was wandering along the ridges, my soul was complete and I was considering staying there.

The abbot was my age, a passionate man, we liked each other and he was inviting me to join their table with the other three – four monks and to talk. From gratitude I did not sleep one night, I described the insights I had come to and cased in manually the manuscript. I gave it to him.

Time passed. Few things were published at the time and they could be easily traced so I did not miss the publication of Padmasambhava. I found within five of the sentences I had written. I searched frantically all the publications on the market and I found two of the remaining four sentences written by me in a book of Danov. It turned out later that the remaining two were not clearly defined., I did not have enough might to do that.

I decided not to lie at least. A f… stuff. Not to lie, you need to know the truth. I don’t know the truth. Last survived my aspiration the things I tell to be verifiable and clearly and unambiguously formulated. And what is most important…everyone has his concerns. If I publish or exhibit anything it should be useful to someone for something.

The most honest and therefore simple is the statement of Solzhenitsyn.

Don’t live in lie.

Apparently he also had problems.